There are times in my life where I feel overwhelmed by the amount of responsibilities that need to be accomplished. I can have spurts of motivation where I put a lot on my plate and quickly burn out.

The thing is, I've noticed that connections have to be fostered, and if you don't focus energy on them they split off. The longer it goes, the further the connection branches off. By connection, I mean every little aspect of life. Relationships, hobbies, work, discipline...

It may sound obvious, but I typically end up wanting to do too much. I find myself in ruts where I feel like I'm not enough and I'm not doing enough. This ends up being a paradox, because I divide myself too much and end up right where I started.

I imagine my life being a garden, and the garden has multiple sectors. In my life, there's a sector for school, one for lifting, and one for self-betterment. Self betterment includes reading, meditation, and walking. Really, this is a broad understatement, but for the sake of thinking this through.

In total, I have 100 little gardeners assigned to my garden of life, and I can assign each sector 10, 20, 30, or all 100 gardeners. Some sectors are larger than others and require a minimum of say 30 gardeners, while some are small and require 10. I have my little gardeners working on each section of my botanical garden, and the more I focus on each section the more it flourishes.

If I spread myself thin, and assign 10 gardeners to work, 10 to school, 10 to MMA, 10 in a relationship, and 10 into a business, I'll probably get fired, fail college, suck at fighting, lose my relationship, and tank my business. Each of these are large sections of my garden that require a certain amount of gardeners. If I can't afford the minimum amount of gardeners, I should remove a sector.

I've noticed that this slower, more undivided focus on things that are severely important to me, bring me closer to the goal of becoming who I want to be. If I focus my gardeners on what's most important right now, I can free up gardeners in the future for important things. I could be able to focus 100 gardeners on someone I love.

I currently don't have the gardeners to meet people, or have a social life, but it's okay with me because those gardeners are instead focused on my self-betterment sector. The sector working on hammering out my flaws, and improving myself, to ultimately be a better person when I focus gardeners on another sector.

The gardeners are not in a permanent state. Some periods in life require more attention in a certain sector, but once I feel more balanced, I can always move them.

This, ultimately, is about progress, and not necessarily perfection. It's about consistent growth and letting things unfold as I give attention to the areas that matter most.

Heres a quote:

"You throw a bucket of water on a rock, and it does nothing. But you let a drop of water fall on the rock every day, and over time, it creates a hole."